"Another one bites the dust, another one bites the dust, and anothe rone gone, and another one gone, another one bites the dust" For those of who who have recently karoke'd with me.. you know the routine.
Yes.. it's true another month has passes since my last post! wow...
A lot has changed yet nothing has changed... Drama.. and stuff!!
I tried going a month with out my anti-anxiety drug, yeah NOT PRETTY!!! so Today is my first day back on it and I am certain no one is more happy about that than Rick. LOL.. I am not depressed just literally anxious. And the worst part is my anxiety shows itself as anger... as that is my form of expressing my anxiety. If that makes sense to you. Irritation would be another good word to describe it. I literally wake up just pissed off... at who? at what? who knows... life! I take a very low dose drug and it basically takes the "edge" away and makes me a much nicer person to deal with. I just hate that I have to take it.. BUT I really tried to control it with no luck.
Our Pastor Nace is leaving us to head for another church in Burke, VA. sigh.. he's not "just" our Pastor he's our friend, the person who baptized us, dedicated my son, our first Pastor, and of course my boss. That's a lot of hats if you think about it. Tomorrow is his last sermon..... and per a typical guy he is avoiding the emtions... LOL.... I can respect that. But.. I am just really sad.... My work experience is about to become drastically different..........................................
Speaking of work I am now up to 20 hours a week, and trying to figure out how to manage all the "Mommy" stuff, with fun stuff, and work stuff and lets not forget Mops and my womans small group stuff too! It is only my 2nd week doing it so I am sure it will work itself out but I currently feel like I live in a wind tunnel. lol............ being sucked into the vector and occasionally spewed out. Ohhhh how I wish it would suck my dirty clothes pile up only to spit it back at CLEAN at me.
Alex is Alex........... going down for bed a hair easier but not sleeping all night nor sleeping in his own bed. Honestly.. I have lost my gumpshin on this, I'm tired and well.. yeah I'm TIRED!