Friday, January 27, 2006

Who would have thought it!

God truly blows my mind every day. Honestly... I started working in November for my church 12 hours a week as the office assistant. I figured this would be an "easy" job and something for me to fill time while Alex was at preschool. Plus the extra money was very much needed. God took that "thought" and blew it out of the water. Technically this is right up my alley. The computer, organization, etc is what I have trained to do. BUT, it's the other side of my job I did not expect. Spiritually it has given me such a deeper look into why I have chosen God as my Father. I have also taken huge strides in my every day life. Small things like the way I parent Alex, or tackle our bills, or my household chores. Even how I am as a wife. It's as if the dots are connecting and starting to actually draw me a picture of what a life with Christ actually looks like. I really look forward to coming to work and to see what God has in store for me next. Let me just say... it is not always easy things either. For me there has been a lot of gut checking and things like that. I love how God always hands me the unexpected! Amazing.......

Saturday, January 14, 2006

A friendly Reminder from God!

Yep.. yesterday God decided to let me know he hears me! I had a SERIOUS God moment.

A little back ground... Rick and I are struggling financially and have been for some time. We have been praying a lot lately about it and really trying to turn it over to God.

I was at my office yesterday and the phone rings and it's my old co-worker Michelle from California (who I haven't spoken to in 6 months, and I have no clue how she got my work number)! We small talk some and then she busts out with that she was in deep prayer the other day and God told her to send me money.................................................... UHHH WHAT???????????

She responds that God placed my name before her and that God said I was hurting for money and that she should send me some.

Shocked doesn't even begin to describe my emotions. Floored..... agast.... blown away... Yeah.... totally!!!!

So she is sending me a check.... whoa......

God really does talk to people if you listen.. and God really does hear you if you pray and have faith!

The Martha is Mightier than the sword!

Make your name a slogan.... let me know what you get!

A silly game for a Saturday!

Monday, January 09, 2006

Anger

Why is it I get so easily irritated with others. It is not as if I expect perfection as I am far from perfect and have my own faults. I just get angry... When I am not listened too! It's as if I speak and they act like they hear me yet their actions speak so much louder than my own words. I HATE being dismissed because I am a female, because they have their own agenda, or because I am younger than them. Don't ask me what I want and then do your own thing anyway - how irritating!!!! It just PISSES me off!

Another thing that makes me MAD is when people are time wasters! Like you have something great planned yet they don't plan in advance, wait till the last minute and then rush around like an idiot, forget 1/2 of what they need and then blame me for it because they were "rushed". If you ask me what time do you want to leave and I say 8:00. That means I will be in the car ready to go at 8:00 NOT 10:30 people!!! PLAN IN ADVANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

While I am on a bitchfest and working some aggression out here let me just say I cannot stand it when people act like their marriage is bliss or try to give Rick and I marital advice when they have NUMEROUS affairs in their history that they don't know WE KNOW ABOUT!!!! Grrr do they think we are stupid??? Makes me MAD!!!!!

Oh and just a little news flash, when I am pissed off.. DON'T TOUCH ME!!!!!! It just makes me even madder. I am NOT a touchy feely type of person, I have serious person space issues and if you enter my space you might get smacked!!!! The only person allowed to enter my space is my husband. That's it.. No one else!

Ohhh..... I think I could go on and on but something inside me is just telling me to stop. I know God wants me to just let it all go but I find that so hard. It's like a wound and it is just full of puss, itchy, and annoying. I truly want to let this anger fade away I guess I just don't know how. Maybe, just maybe... Writing it all out here will help it start to heal..................

Sigh...... Guess I will go shower and try to wash my ugly mood away!



Sunday, January 08, 2006

Yikes, I fell off the wagon!

Merry Christmas & Happy 2006 everyone! Yep, I fell off the Blogging wagon once again but this time I have a really good excuse. I was in California for 11 days. Kinda tough to blog when your that far away from your computer. In all my traveling I normally never have a hard time with jet lag. This time upon arriving home it killed me. I have been just utterly exhausted all week. Like crawl into bed and never come out exhausted.

My Christmas was wonderful, only would have been better by having a white Christmas in New Hampshire surrounded by my own family instead of my husband's. Coming form a big family our Christmas's are just so different. We come from just a huge tradition and everyone knows all the "rules". Like never, ever, getting up in the middle of someone opening a gift. I know all silly petty things.... I really need to get over it! LOL....

We spent 2 days in the winter wonderland of Lake Tahoe! Ohhh fresh snow had just fallen and I was seriously in HEAVEN! It was gorgeous. Alex was just soo excited and would have played in the snow for hours on end IF a heated pool and hot tub weren't inches away. YEP... We went in a heated pool and hot tub outside in 30 degree weather. It was beyond cool! Alex thought it was the greatest thing ever. We had snow ball fights, built sad little snowmen, went sledding, and ate good food. I was so sad to leave as we had only been there just over 24 hours, I seriously could have stayed my entire vacation there. Sigh......

We also got to enjoy an incredible meal with 9 of our closest friends at the Melting Pot. IF you have one of these restaurants near you and you haven't gone yet... RUN don't walk! Personally my favorite part is the dessert. yuummmmmmmmmmmm nothing like warm, rich chocolate sauce dripping off a cool, crisp, fresh strawberry. I was in food bliss.

Until the next morning when my husband got the stomach flu..... My bliss quickly went out the window after that! Lol...