Monday, January 09, 2006

Anger

Why is it I get so easily irritated with others. It is not as if I expect perfection as I am far from perfect and have my own faults. I just get angry... When I am not listened too! It's as if I speak and they act like they hear me yet their actions speak so much louder than my own words. I HATE being dismissed because I am a female, because they have their own agenda, or because I am younger than them. Don't ask me what I want and then do your own thing anyway - how irritating!!!! It just PISSES me off!

Another thing that makes me MAD is when people are time wasters! Like you have something great planned yet they don't plan in advance, wait till the last minute and then rush around like an idiot, forget 1/2 of what they need and then blame me for it because they were "rushed". If you ask me what time do you want to leave and I say 8:00. That means I will be in the car ready to go at 8:00 NOT 10:30 people!!! PLAN IN ADVANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

While I am on a bitchfest and working some aggression out here let me just say I cannot stand it when people act like their marriage is bliss or try to give Rick and I marital advice when they have NUMEROUS affairs in their history that they don't know WE KNOW ABOUT!!!! Grrr do they think we are stupid??? Makes me MAD!!!!!

Oh and just a little news flash, when I am pissed off.. DON'T TOUCH ME!!!!!! It just makes me even madder. I am NOT a touchy feely type of person, I have serious person space issues and if you enter my space you might get smacked!!!! The only person allowed to enter my space is my husband. That's it.. No one else!

Ohhh..... I think I could go on and on but something inside me is just telling me to stop. I know God wants me to just let it all go but I find that so hard. It's like a wound and it is just full of puss, itchy, and annoying. I truly want to let this anger fade away I guess I just don't know how. Maybe, just maybe... Writing it all out here will help it start to heal..................

Sigh...... Guess I will go shower and try to wash my ugly mood away!



4 comments:

M said...

Wow, what happened Sweetie? I can totally relate on all counts. I've even started my secret blog. Follow the link at it will take you there. Sending love and peace to you. mhn

YankeeAmanda said...

I guess it won't do any good to chant calmly, "Find a happy place, find a happy place", would it?

Tracy S said...

Yikes I have so had days like that .Sometimes it really does help to vent ..Thank God for blogs huh .I hope you were able to wash your bad mood away.Sometimes speakin truth no matter how bad it sucks or how much they don't want to hear it is a good thing:)

Jackie said...

Well I'm sure that you feel better by now, but I SOOO understand what you're saying. I totally relate to everything except maybe the personal space thing. and sometimes when I get angry I just can NOT LET IT GO! That's one thing I'm praying for and working on changing.

And you just vent anytime you need to. That's what blogs (and friends) are for.